I don't know what I will do if this plan doesn't work out. I would still like to teach at the university level. Taking pictures of the recent lunar eclipse has helped reinvigorate my passion for astronomy, and got me thinking that if I did not get into a Philosophy of Science program I should go a more traditional route -- bunker down, beef up on some calculus and physics, and take the dreaded physics GREs. Beefing up on calculus/physics probably means I should take some college courses again to really do it right, but if I was going to pick up a few courses maybe I should just do a few philosophy courses and reapply to the Philosophy of Science program in a year or two. Yet a third option is to again go a little catty-corner and look into a history of science program. Yet another option is to become a high school physics or mathematics teacher. My old physics teacher is retiring this year to boot.
Arg! The problem is I want to lecture. I really loved that aspect of teaching in Japan. Physics courses are not really lecture based -- at least not in the same way a philosophy course or history course is lecture based. Yet, I don't want to simply throw away my science background I want synthesis! My physics background is something I am deeply proud of and helps define me and my worldview. I just want to do both, but maybe I don't have the tool set needed. I don't know.
What am I going to do?